emo

not a single day in Jakarta that i spent was at least a good one.
i cried before my flight.
i always cried after my training is done.
and i am crying now as well.

really.. not a good one.. =(

its only a week of my probation period.

3 days in singapore was okay.
have to learn all the things that i must know and have to get my brain working again, after 6 months ive not been using it well.

but the days in Jakarta was unexplainable.
i dont know why i feel so intimidated by my surroundings here..
and i feel like a dumb in this global company.
where everyone knows how to do things well. and i dont know a single thing about anything.
and the best is its the lonely feeling that i have it here. 

i dont know if its just what i feel,
or its really me who cant work.


i am just very fearful rite now..

oh God.. please make me fearless.
please give me a brilliant mind to understand everything there, and may i can mingle well with all the people there..
and i need Your strength and your joy Lord, through it all.